9:45 -  protein smoothie, 300

11:30 - 1 egg, 1/2 piece cheese, 150 (450)

12:45 - few bites sweet potato, 30 (480)

1:45 - 1 serving organic animal crackers, 1/2 glass organic whole milk, 185 (665)

2:45 - 4 chicken strips, 2 TB BBQ, 1/3 glass milk, 500 (1165)

5:15 - serving pasta (whole wheat rotini, bratwurst, broccoli, feta, marinara), 400 (1565)

7:00 - 1 1/2 servings yam, 1 serving asiago cheese, 1 serving roast beef, glass milk, 750 (2315)

9:30 - skinny cow, 150 (2465)

10:30 - Starbucks milk chocolate grahams (280), glass milk (110), 390 (2855)

9:30 smoothie, 300

10:40 - blueberry pomegranate trail mix, 175 (475)

1:15 - 2 pieces whole wheat organic bread (240), 2 pieces cheddar cheese (220), 1 T I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Light (50), 1 serving Organic Roasted Red Pepper & Tomato soup (110), splash milk in soup (30), few extra grilled cheese bites (75), 725 (1200)

4:15 - 1/2 serving whole wheat rotini, 3 chicken nuggets, 1/3 piece swiss cheese, 300 (1500)

6:15 - 1.25 servings roast beef, 2 servings yam, 600 (2100)

9:45 - serving of cottage cheese, 110 (2210)

10:30 am - smoothie [yogurt, nonfat milk, blueberries, oatmeal, protein powder, flax oil], (300), few small bites broccoli with touch of cheese, small fajita style strip of steak meat, (75), 375

1:30 - 1 cup broccoli w/ 1 slice cheddar cheese (130), steak strips(150), 2/3 sweet potato (200), milk (110), 1 1/2 chicken nuggets (60), 650 (1025)

7:15 - 2 small tacos (2 small flour tortillas, about 1/2 cup hamburger meat, 2 TB cheese, lettuce, tomato, 2 TB sour cream/salsa/taco seasoning mix), 1 1/2 servings tater tots, 2 more TB sour cream/salsa/taco seasoning mix, 2 oreos, 800 (1825)

9:30 - skinny cow cone, 150 (1975)

10:00 am - 2 servings cereal, 1 serving milk, 400

2 pm - plate of appetizers / hors d'ouerves, high estimate (I was really careful and consciously took very little food though I did load up more on the fruit & broccoli rab) 600, (1000)

3:30 - small cupcake, 250 (1250)

5:30 - Cliff bar, 160 (1410)

6:45 - serving cottage cheese, 110 (1520)

7:30 - 1 1/2 servings salmon (500), rice (200), pesto sauce (400), milk (130), 1230 (2750)

9:30 - 1/2 serving vanilla ice cream (75), skinny cow (150), 225 (2975)

Honestly, not bad for having been hungry ALL day again (so annoying!!) and going to a baby shower with lots of tasty snacks.  I am honestly in awe of how Christ has changed my heart- I didn't snack at all until food time, and then I carefully only choose one of each item that I really wanted, passing on creamy cheese logs and brie (which I LOVE!), and then I didn't snack at all after that.  Plus, I had a vanilla cupcake and the chocolate ones were screaming out my name but I simply ignored them and didn't go for it.  Oh, and at the store I could have chosen any number of unhealthy snacky foods since I had a half hour drive to get back to Seattle from the 'burbs, but I chose a high-protein Cliff bar.  Honestly, that's the power of Jesus.  I can't take credit for it because I tried to be that disciplined on my own power and failed.  It's not about behavior modification- it's about heart change, and only Jesus transforms hearts.

I know the calories are a bit over, but honestly it was a good day.

10:00 - 1 1/2 servings Honey Bunches of Oats w/ Almonds (195), 1 cup milk (110), 305

2:30 - 2 servings corn tortilla chips (300), 2 servings cheddar cheese (250), 1 serving cottage cheese (150), 700 (1005)

4:00 - 3 servings queso (120), 1 serving corn tortilla chips (140), 3 bites Jason's nachos (40), 300 (1305)

8:00 - rice (200), chicken (350), sauce (onion, garlic, chicken broth, pesto, toasted walnuts, feta cheese) (400), 950 (2205)

9:15 - Skinny cow cone, 150 (2355)

11:00 - 1 serving homestyle vanilla ice cream (160), 1 serving graham crackers (130), glass milk (130), 440 (2795)

I was SO hungry today.  Seriously.  I'd eat and an hour later my stomach would be growling, and it's the end of the week (we grocery shop primarily on Sundays) so there wasn't much food around.  I did really pay attention to portion sizes and measured out every serving by grams on my food scale, so even though I ate often it was healthy amounts of food though some of it was not healthy food (nachos).  Good day.  And I actually am ok with being a little over on calories since yesterday was so low- hopefully it will kind of shock my metabolism and it won't go into long term reserves mode after the horribly low day yesterday.

11:45 - 1/3 lean grilled pork chop, 75

4:30 - 1/4 baked sweet potato, 75 (150)

8:30 - leftover stew (400), small grilled pork chop (150), 550 (700)

10:00 - Dove ice cream bar, 280 (790)

I know, not enough calories.  It was an extremely rough day.  I can't get into it, but I have to say that I am so incredibly grateful for a loving God and a loving husband who also loves Christ.

The craziest thing is that, after being grossly sinned against in the morning, I completely lost my appetite and couldn't make myself eat.  I ran to Jesus and was actually convicted of the sin of not eating.  Ouch.  Ironic.

And there you have it.

8:30 am - smoothie [yogurt, nonfat milk, blueberries, oatmeal, protein powder, flax oil], 300

11:30 - 3/4 serving pasta, 1 1/2 pcs cheddar cheese, 2+ cups spinach, few bites of bbq pork, 450 (750)

1:30- 2 servings organic animal crackers, 5 chicken nuggets, bbq sauce, glass nonfat milk, 600 (1350)

3 - 5 animal crackers, 50  (1400)

5:30 - 3 cheese ravioli, 4 chicken nuggets, 2 tb marinara, slice swiss cheese, few tiny bites org whl wheat toast w/ cheddar cheese, 450 (1850)

6:30 - leftover stew (rice, org. tomato/red pepper soup, carrots, zucchini, celery, rotisserie chicken breast), 400 (2250)

10:30 - 2 Big Macs, 1080 (3330)

10:45 - small mint chocolate, 20 (3350)

I've wrestled with what to say about the Big Macs.  Do I say nothing?  Do I explain it?  I'll only say this- at the time it didn't seem like sin.  I think that shows how far I have to go.  I definitely should have only had one, but Jason wanted two of his own (we were both extremely hungry) and I knew one was enough but it was 2 for $3 so I just did 2.  I thought that I was being prayerful about it and trusting God, but the fact that I have been wrestling with the decision for over an hour just shows that it's not that cut and dry.  Overall, I'm more concerned with letting Christ teach me and reveal the poor spiritual decisions that I am with the calories, so that's a start.

With that, I will stop.  No justifying or over-explaining.